Goals

I tried drinking last night, to no avail.

See, I live in a small, corrupt, Southern county, with all that entails: it's illegal to sell liquor, but it's not illegal to make your own if you don't sell it - on down the line. That means the bars cannot sell liquor and you have to drive nearly 45 minutes into another county to get real alcohol; if you want to knock back a few, it's going to be beers. And beer doesn't always set so well on my tummy - not to mention I have to kill at least three or four of them just to get a buzz. Which means, of course, that if I don't really feel like drinking beer, I'm either going to get over that feeling real quick or remain sober.

Most usually, I don't feel like drinking beer because I have not been eating well; my body lacks the proper vitamins and nutrients and things it needs and beer sucks what few are left right out. So I can sometimes take a vitamin with a glass of water and knock back a few, which is what I did today.

See, I tried like hell to drink last night and just could not do it! And I did not feel like drinking today, but I did not feel like sitting around all day, being bored, doing the same old shit I do everyday either, so it was either drink or toss and turn on the couch, trying to sleep all day, then toss and turn all night because I'd almost slept all day - and I decided to see it through and drink.

And I know what some of you might say: "Monday's New Year's Eve! Aren't you going to drink then?!" To which I must respond, "I am going to try." To which I can already hear you saying, "But it's New Year's Eve Day!" To which I must say, "No, I will be sitting here just like every other day, so it's really just Monday!"

It's really all about priorities; goals and priorities.